As I am sitting here on a plane headed to Cancun for my daughter’s wedding, there is a feeling of accomplishment stirring in me. As we go through life’s challenges, the pressures of life, preparation in all the details, all the while not knowing what each day will bring about, I have this trust dwelling deep within my heart that God will see me through, no matter what comes my way…

I have been standing on this scripture for most of my life, but now more than ever for over a year now… “My power is made perfect in your weakness”… so, in my weakness, His power is made perfect. Oh Lord may I continue to walk in humbleness and weakness in order that Your power would be made evident in and through me!

Since the motorcycle accident in January 2013 He has been tearing down all things in my life in which would stand in the way of Him and His purposes for me. We are now starting to enter into the building back up in the way He desires all things to be in our life.

I remember the night after the accident, me and my broken bones on the 4th floor of the hospital room, looking out over the horizon. Peering through these windows at what used to be the Saint Joseph’s Hospital, now torn down…boulders and dirt remaining, I watched intently as the the large bulldozers down below moving the dirt and the rocks out of the way to prepare for the new building.

At that moment The Lord spoke and said, “I am tearing down things in your life in order to build them back up. Trust in this work that I am doing in and through you,”

There is a time and season for everything under heaven. When he spoke those words to me and showed me His divine work in my life that was coming, I trusted Him fully with my life, even though I had no idea what was ahead for me.

His word says, before it comes, I will announce it to you. Isaiah 42:9 – “See, the former things have taken place, and the new things I declare; before they spring into being I announce them to you.’ And this is exactly what he has done. He announced it me that He would be tearing down in order to build back up, a “new and improved” to be used for His Kingdom’s Glory. I was ready for whatever came my way, knowing I was in good hands. “I put my trust in you Lord with my life, as I am yours”….. I knew He would take care of me as He is a good Father.

That was 1 year and 6 months ago….

What a ride it’s been… A time of letting go and a taking up. Goodness, there is so much I want to share, as there has been much, but as I think about it, it makes me smile. Its been a hard ride, but good one. Let me share a bit…

There were times in the last few months I would sit before The Lord crying out to Him asking Him, “What else do you want from me, I am here before You standing completely “naked” not holding anything from You!?” In other words, before Him, Him examining my heart and me being transparent before Him with all I am. Honestly, I was frustrated with Him. Ever felt like that? Yet, there is still something else He shows us about ourself that is not pleasing to Him. He showed it to me, and I was having to “shed” off another layer.

He has asked of us to sale our current home of 15 years. Leaving this place in which has been a comfort to me, finding refuge in between these four walls for so long. There have been multitudes of prayers in this home, many for you, many for the my family, and also for the nations of the world. Along with these prayers, many tears cried, and much rejoicing in seeing God move on behalf of those prayers! My children and grandchildren made this their home as well. Holidays and Sunday afternoons, spending time with each other as a family. Its was a hard decision to let go. This was what The Lord had told me, “sale your home,” This was one thing that we failed to let go. And here we are now, in obedience, letting go. One more thing of letting go. I embrace what else He has before us. Anticipating the “new things” and the building back up of the way that He would have it.

We are now spending time with my earthly father, in a small South Texas town Blooming Grove. This is the place in which I grew up as a small child. The Lord has brought me back to this “home” in which I spent time as a child. As I entered church on Sunday morning attending Bible Study I walked in with my great aunt and sitting at the table were three women, from ages 50 to 97. Before the study started it was made known to me that they were the ones in whom taught Vacation Bible School during the summer 42 years ago. They were the ones who had prayed over me many times in my youth and had a huge part in leading me to accept Jesus at the age of 7 during VBS! I was now sitting with these women a grown women now, reading and learning the word of God together. My cup was overflowing! I had a smile on my face the entire time I was with them. God had orchestrated this meeting, and I was so full of joy!

Just think about this, if He had never ask of us to sale our home, we would not be here in Blooming Grove, small Texas town of approx 800, able to sit with the same ladies who led me to Jesus during VBS. My heart is so grateful to The Lord for blessing so, and making this transition easier by blessing so much and returning me to this place for a moment so that I can experience the love of these women! It shows me how important it is for older women to teach the younger, to show them the way to go so that they will not depart from it. I was one of the young ones and am so grateful that these women followed the instructions of The Lord. I am who I am in part today because The Lord, over 42 years ago had these women take me under their wings and teach me, pray for me and love on me. A small child, without a mother, they became what I did not have at the age of 7, and now with me being 49 sit among them, I am truly thankful to The Lord. Again, my cup overflows.

Thank you Lord for taking me out and for bringing me here for a moment….and He says “Even then was I with you.”

“He will cover you with His feathers, and under His wings you will find refuge; His faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.” Psalms 91:4

So, I say to you, “What is The Lord wanting to tear down in your life? Allow Him to do just that, and when He does, He has promised that He will build it back up.” Let go of these things He has asked of you to let go of, and then watch Him move powerfully and wonderfully in your life to build them back up in the way He desires. I promise you, you will stand in awe of His doing it! May not feel good at the time, but it will be worth it!”

Now, time for the next adventure! I will keep in touch!

“The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make his face shine on you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace.”
Numbers 6:24-26



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